Anonymity in Cyberspace

I was going to write about masked vigilantes on the internet in this post, but like yesterday, my mind is way too chopped up. I don't want to write about something that sucks when it's a great topic. When I'm in a good mood, I can ramble on about something without digressing much.

So I'll just talk about what happened today.


To sum it up:

1. sick and feverish
2. woke super late
3. got attacked by an overly friendly cat who shed alot of hair (called Wolly)
4. enjoyed an economics lesson
5. engaged in conversation with Victor on the bus but it was filled with many awkward silences
6. met my sister at our front door
7. ate a really really strange combo of food
8. caught up with my sister
9. went about doing stuff I do everyday (neighbours. omggg i hate sunny.)

I will upload the video of Wolly one day. When I say attacked, I don't mean ferociously. It just plodded all the way to me while I was standing at the bus stop (waiting for a bus which came late and i was 15 min early). Then it started rubbing itself all over my legs, OH MY GOODNESS GRACIOUS ME, CAT HAIR COVERED MY LEGS SO YUCKY. Then in economics, I felt abit itchy, and for a moment, I thought I was allergic to cat hair. But that was just a false alarm.

Mmm. Today was uneventful. People left school for their "As you like it". They get to watch a play during school time. D: I have to go out on a Friday night. blehh.

ACTIVITIES FOR THIS WEEK

Wed: Chatswood
Thurs: Darling Harbour
Friday: Bondi

What an interesting life I have.

Despite all the hype & colour I have in my life, sometimes I can't help but feel very plain and boring. I have alot of conversations with people filled with awkward silences. I don't know what to say, and am afraid of accidentally offending someone =.=. This is probably why I find blogging appealing. Blogging is healthy for the mind. Just say w/e you want whenever to whoever.

I also felt quite lonely today :( People were off to "as you like it" and I got to school late and had no idea people had gone away. The common room was mostly empty and I could SERIOUSLY SEE NO ONE. Then I realised that many people had a double free and were probably on their way home already. Damn. Monday lunches are quite quiet. To add to this, I feel a greater distance between my friends and I since year 12 started. Everyone's been quite preoccupied with school and things of study, and I'm still just pretty much the same, I just don't connect with them as much anymore.

What's worse is we're all spread out now. The canteen was cool. We used to all hang out in a bunch, taking up 1/4 of the floorspace in the canteen area. Now I see juniors cluttering the space and 4-5 seniors hanging around.

But I guess in life, somethings never change. I don't know whether that's bad or good, a bit of both I suppose.

Digressing: If you're feeling brave & man enough to stand viewing disturbing images, google "harlequin babies". One of the cruelest conditions mother nature has to offer to babies. I was shocked and scared the first time I googled it (thanks to Topher). yeah. That's the google search of the day. Perhaps I should make this a regular thing.

Speaking of google, I was gooling my own name before (teehee) seeing what would come up and OHMYGOSH! MY AVATAR CAME UP- which triggered me to write something about anonymity in cyberspace. My parents always tell me to not put my photos up on the internet incase someone unfriendly finds it and does voodoo or something strange like that (I lie, they never mentioned anything about voodoo.. that's just me).

I am the world's greatest digressor.

I am like that wiki game where you open up a page like "vampires" and try to end up on the page "hot dogs" by just clicking on hyperlinks in the page.

My mind is crazy. Continuing from above, voodoo... reminds me of the present I got from Lancy last year, which reminds me her birthday is coming up, which brings me to think, what the hell will I get her, a bag? which brings me to LOUIS VUITTON (not that i'm a fan or anything) which brings me to think about this character called LV in a korean drama I once watched which reminds me of FULL HOUSE, which reminds me of choc chip cookies (she ate them in one episode) which reminds me of sesame street. and so on.

This is why my blogs are so long.

Pray thee, are you all well? I'm starting to feel not so well again. Perhaps this is sleep related. I need my rest. Like all my nieces and nephews who need "naptime" I should probably follow in their tiny footsteps.

Little kids grow up so quickly.

The idiot in the background saying "BIG SUPERMAN" is me. ==;
You can also hear my cousin and my sister cooing he's so cute. And he seriously is. HOWEVER he's grown up into this violent little kid who uses a light sabre to threaten me (true story, at the last viet family reunion- I don't know why I'm invited to that. I'm not the slightest bit viet). Deary me. Him and Vincent have this HUGE GINORMOUS LOVE for Ben 10. 8) So GUESS WHO BOUGHT THEM BEN 10 WATCHES. Chyeaahhh. + 1 for the super aunt. (H)

I was just looking through my photos to find a bad pic of Thash, to bag him out online for pestering me through texting with other people's phones x) But I realised he's SUPER photogenic. Yes, Thash, you are amazingly photogenic and you look NORMAL if not good in my photos.

Damn you.

Oh back to relatives, my youngest niece, Laura is back in France (yes. Her father's french and she was born there) so she can school there and enjoy their super good health care benefits. I'll miss her, but I think my dad will miss her more. Despite the fact that my dad is tall big and scary looking, little kids really like him and the other way around too. Maybe its because its nice to breathe different air at a higher altitude when you're sitting on top of my dad's shoulders or something, but they just love him. Babies also stop crying when he's carrying them : natural born father yeah?

My mum on the other hand, connects well with animals. ALL animals love her. ALL ANIMALS. You may find it strange then, that we don't own any pets.

A couple of years back, Janette gave me a duckling of her two fab ducks Bubble and Pop. We called it Zip :) He was yellow with a black tail. Super cute. But about 3 days after I had it, it died. Man. I cried for AT least 3 days straight. I hate parting with others. :( I really grew fond of that yellow fluffball. I remember sneaking it into the house, letting it swim in our basic (HAHA) and when it pooed, I took a chopstick from the draw to pick out the plug so that the water + poo would get sucked down the pipes lol.

THINGS FOR GIRLS TO THINK ABOUT. I was at Toys r us the other day and I saw Polly Pocket. WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO THE SUPER COOL MINISCULE MODELS?! I LOVED MY POLLY POCKETS (I had the christmas edition one, where there was a christmas house, with th elittle rooms, and then trees outside, an iceskate rink in the middle and a tree stump. When you pressed the treestump down, christmas music would place. Gosh I loved it so much. It fit in my hand. SO COOL. But now the PollyPockets are ugly, big and fat. The toys nowadays aren't intellectual at all. ARE WE BREEDING A NEW GENERATION OF LAZY DUMBER KIDS? No. It's just Polly Pocket.

When I'm older with a lot more money than now, I'd buy the old polly pockets.. off ebay or something. Money can buy happiness. :)

I love everything from the late 80s to the 90s.

still young and fresh

Hi everyone,




If you're googling "lady suit" on google images, and you are slightly afraid of seeing obese people in minimal clothing, shield your eyes as you scroll down to the last pic on the first page.








I wonder how many of you are actually googling that up now XD

HOTHOTHOT, or not: Oxford.

Oh my gosh. I was at Macq today, and I saw the most eyegasmic suits ever. And over coats. OH MY GOSH. I would seriously move to Melb or something to have a chance to wear something like that. It never gets cold enough in Sydney to wear a beautiful overcoat like the one I saw in Oxford.

Digressing,

I was talking to my parents about future career choices etc. Since I was a puny puny little human bean, my parents have drummed into my head, the only 2 possible career choices I could undertake.

Law and Medicine.

On my 3D ambition poster I made in year 2, it says "BELINDA WANTS TO BE A DOCTOR OR A LAWYER IN THE FUTURE".

So by the time I reached high school, I was adamant on becoming a doctor. I love genetics, biology, PE/HEALTH. LOVED IT. But in the recent years my parents have been dissuading me from taking the med path. Because of this, my interest in biology and med in general has dropped quite alot. I found this strange, I'm easily influenced by my parents X)

Reasons against Medicine:

1. Time consuming
2. Psychological Trauma (my dad says if watching Neighbours throws me into fits of spastic rage, I shouldn't think about treating other people. Mentally unsound. haaaa T_T)
3. MOOLAH? WHERE WILL I GET MONEY FROM ?!?!?! Parents?

OH! I'll digress slightly. I've touched on this before, but I see money as super important. Um, the 'money buys happiness' thing. BEE TEE DOUBLE EWE, for all those who say "oh, you're wrong, you don't need money to be happy"- good for you. How convenient for you too. I wish I could be happy without money. In today's society, you need money. It's a source of security.

EXAMPLE,

A family friend and her young son once got lost in some really windy streets (while they were driving). The boy started crying and says something like "WHAT IF WE GET LOST MUMMY, WE'RE GOING TO DIE", and his mum said stuff to calm him down, but nothing worked until she said "Don't worry, I have my credit card with me".

True (and gay, yeah i know) story. 100% True.

But bleh. I'd rather my parents spend money on my sister's education than mine. Damnit, I forgot what I was going to say about money.

Something along the lines of people who have money say stuff like "oh money isn't important", while on the other hand, needy people think otherwise. I don't like it when people say that. It really buys me. "oh money isn't important" is missing a "to me".

Ho hum. My mind is really in small bits and pieces today. I can't think properly. Another thing I dislike. People who take things for granted.

We all do it because we grew up in a time where everything became super nice, air con, technology and whatnot. But have you noticed in new generations, the ATTITUDES of children? OKay, by children, I mean those kids of nasty asian parents who never spend a single proper minute with their kid, never teaching them proper values or manners, always away from home- usually at the office. What's worse is that they're rich. Now these kids think they're super powers in kid kingdom. I had to teach one once. Freaking pain in the neck. Just because you possess a large quantity of wealth, it does not mean you will get a good education, it does not mean you can be friends with anyone, or have all the friends in the world. It especially does not mean you can uphold an attitude with an upturned nose.

I hate snobby kids. I've always hated snobs. I've also noticed that alot of snobby kids do not know of respect and MODESTY. What the hell man. That student I taught once threatened me... "My parents are both lawyers, so you can't tell me what to do. I'll get them to sue you."

You're in my bloody classroom kid. Stay here and shut up for gtfo. Usually when I say "I'll call your parents" kids start behaving better, however the rich ones are like, SO? Ticks me off. I met a parent once, and honestly, she did NOT CARE at all that her son was taunting the other kids, that he was disturbing the class. She's a public nuisance.

I'm moving onto new topics so much D: D: D:

Thinking about my old job can be quite amusing. Teaching kids is fun, but every now and then you get the troublesome one, and it's hard to not look like the bad guy (let alone feel like one). But no matter how bad they are, at such a young age, I do no think they are to blame. People who bring life into the world should really reassess the amount of new responsibilties they have. Nowadays, some parents wrongly think that schools are the only place for education. What about the home? What you do around the house, how to act towards other people at the shopping centre will be reflected in your child- someone who looks up to you no matter how evil you are. (Though this is totally and utterly untrue once the kid grows up into a teen. haa).

*** I will say no more on this topic. I sound like an old lady nagging young people at bus stops.

RE: Still young and fresh.

My parents thinks I'm not adventurous enough. When I look for a job, I want security. They're thinking "the higher the risk, the higher the returns". They say because I'm still young, I can do whatever I want with bigger ambitions etc, because when else can I do it? When I'm greying and reaching my days of hormone imbalance and uncontrollable bowels? NOW IS THE TIME-they say. But I'm too afraid.

I'd rather stick to one type of career all my life, instead of changing every 3 or so years (like statistics predict). And I don't mean staying in one company for life (though that may not be too bad :).

Okay. Starting to post this late was a bad idea. you have all wasted your time. Such an anticlimax. I have nothing else to report, except that I LOOK FOWARD TO ALL MY ECO LESSONS. I actually learn alot. I'm dreading my boring classes alot though.

I promise I'll blog nicer next time. haa. It started off okay but I just kept going on tangents. Bleeh. Why am I so much more tired than usual... this constant lethargy is killing me. =-=;

PS. not sure if I mentioned this, but I watch Seven Pounds and Slumdog Millionaire. My mum and I both loved Slumdog. Especially all that dancing during the credits. Oh and INDIA IS SO COLOURFUL. I love it!

CLICK HERE FOR A LAUGH.

To Andrew (Moby) (Andrew Chin?)
This is how you say "I have Diarrhoea"
下痢しています。

げりしています。
The video cracked me up. Good stuff.

And I think it's Cabbage's birthday today. JOLLY BIRTHDAY MAAAATE :) Enjoy it this year and hopefully it won't clash with your term 1 exams next year.

And at Jason. I'm just not good with study :D well, nothing I do really interests me.

WHY? You may ask. Because all the subjects I would have a slight interest in would be something like graphic design (something they don't offer in this hole) and va. Gosh. I remember all those verbal wars I had with my parents in year 8.

I WANT TO DO VA AND FRENCH.

"NO! YOU HAVE TO DO COMMERCE AND JAP"

In the end, I did commerce and Jap.


This is a conversation between my mother and I today.
M: Don't stress. It's over. (speaking about jap ext and math lol)
B: Wuh? No I'm just sulking.
M: Just try your best- no pressure.
B: Can I get a math tutor, or someone who can help me like once a week?
M: Yep sure.

A couple of hours later-
Dad: WHAT?! NO!
B: TT__TT; great.
M: Why not?
D: IF SHE NEEDS A TUTOR FOR HER HSC, HOW THE HECK IS SHE GOING TO LEARN IN UNIVERSITY?! Will she need a tutor in university too? (said in a super snide tone)
B: I need remedial help D=
D: Rubbish. Just buy books and self learn.


So I will just buy books and self learn. Meaning I spend ages pondering over one page, reading the same friggin sentence over and over again.

Yay for academic failure.

Speaking of parents and study... why are mine not caring about my exams.. Why is my dad mowing the lawn outside my bedroom when I'm studying? Why does my mum take me out to eat even when I PLEAD "noooo . NOOOOOO. NOOOOOOOOO. please no!". TWO DAYS IN A ROW we've been having afternoon tea at Edward's restaurant. Not that there's anything wrong with the restaurant of course, but what the hell I need to study :(

When I go out and have fun or "destress" I'm kept in that mood for the entire day/night.

I think they're worried about me. But they're totally doing the wrong things to help me D: