new years eve

mum should be in HK by now :)

Kelly and I fell asleep on the couch while watching cirque de solei. (I don't know how to spell that) and then we woke up to Las Vegas... :)

Not many people hanging around on msn. Celebrating the coming of the new year I guess..

WHY AM I SO TIRED?!


Ooh I drove for an hour and a bit today! SO FUN. Today, like yesterday involved me driving around in a carpark... in circles.. HOWEVER, I tried reversing for the first time today.

O.O SO SCARY! Driving has tanned my arms :( Not good. xP Oh well.

Happy New Year everyone :) I hope 2009 will be a fantastic year full of studying, cramming and bsing in exams. (AND DRIVING).

Time to wipe the slate clean and start again.

No resolutions for me. I rarely remember what they are a few months down the track.

Wishes:

1. BE HAPPY
2. BE HEALTHY

and woah. a huge boom went off somewhere outside =/ and it wasnt fireworks.

enchanting

I spent about 15 mins just staring at these fish. (:

So hypnotic.

for a friend

DEAREST CABBAGE,

I SHALL MOVE MY HAPPY BLOG OUT OF THE WAY, TO WRITE THIS ONE.

I REALLY hope your wrists become un-sprained again :( BE CAREFUL. And stop making motherly people (a.k.a myself) worry!

Get better soon and practice some of your kick-ass kung fu :) (SWORDS!)

Now rest, and get off the computer. I hope you're not tapping away on msn with your [possibly] swollen wrists. I DO NOT EXPECT A COMMENT FROM YOU for at least 3 days, so if I see one, I will march down one street, break into your house and smack you, okay? (no. I've decided that one of my MSN SLAPPY emotes will be more effective :P)

SO YES. Dedicated to you.

TAKE CARE!

SUCCESS SUCCESS!

HOW IRONIC!

Last post was talk about failure, however, in this post, I shall share with you all, the news of my HAPPY HAPPY TODAY.

I HAVE MY LS NOW.

*does a happy dance*

I DROVE AN HOUR TODAY

*does a happy dance*

I CAN DRIIIIIIIIIIVE

*does a happy dance*

IM SO HAPPY. I DIDN'T CRASH INTO ANYTHING. MY PHOTO IS NOT TOTALLY ATROCIOUS.

*does a happy dance* x 2

:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

PLUS. Bakefest yesterday was a total success too. Except Cheryl and Drew weren't too keen on having their photos taken T_T; So I don't have a BAKERS ASSOCIATION PHOTO!

But that's okay. the CAKES WE BAKED were yummy.

I SHALL SHARE! (the recipe) :P

White Chocolate and Macadamia Muffins

INGREDIENTS:
- 300g self-raising flour
- 150g caster sugar
- 140g white Choc Bits
- 75g coarsley chopped macadamias, toasted
- 60g butter, melted
- 180ml milk
- 1 egg, lightly beaten

METHOD: (teehee prac)
1. Preheat oven to moderately hot (I'd say around 180 degrees). Grease six-hole texas muffin pan (They're the really deep ones. So if you have the normal cupcake tray, it will fill 12!)
2. Sift flour and sugar into large bowl; stir in remaining ingredients. Divide mixture among holes of prepared pan.
3. Bake muffins in moderately hot oven (180 degrees) about 20 minsutes. Stand muffins in pan for a few minutes before turning onto wire rack.

Serves 6- huge muffins, 12- normal sized cupcakes.

[[Recipe from the Woman's Weekly HomeBaked recipe book!]]

YAYERS!

Can't find the Butterfly cake recipe at the moment. I shall leave that for another day. Unfortunately, I was cleaning last night, and put my camera in a very safe place. So safe, I've forgotten where I placed it. So yeah, no photos to post.

Mum's leaving tomorrow :( Dad's on the phone atm trying to defer her flight back to Syd, so she can spend more than 5 nights in HK (= more shopping!

BUT YAY. Ls!

Apathetic = failure?

Hiya people (:

I didn't go on the computer at all yesterday. After spending the entire day out with my family, and juggling channels at night with Kelly, trying to watch 3 movies at the same time, I felt too exhausted to turn the computer on. SBS has really weird cartoons broadcasting at night.. Striperella/Erotica? Waahh? euughh.

Anyway. If you see me in the street, you may not recognise me. Obviously, that was exaggerated. I've just changed my glasses ! ! ! TO FOBBY ONES! I had no idea it looked that fobby. But okay lah`~! :P They're comfortable and very solid. Plus I think they make me look smart. (How foo!ish I know xD)

What I'm not used to is my limited peripheral vision now. The two arms of the glasses are at least 2 and a half times wider than my old glasses... I'm scared I'll run someone over when I'm driving ! ! ! OH! I feel like a horse with their blinkers... blinders? Don't remember what it's called.

These few days I've been thinking alot- about my work attitude. I don't care about my academia enough. I don't study much normally, I cram before exams and I feel sad when I get my results, but in the end I don't really care?

My main problem: I don't have time. But I do. I just spend my time doing other stuff. I procrastinate far too much. And my tv habits are taking over me! *sigh*

I should study economics.

I've said that many times these holidays. Baaaah.

But yeah, I'm starting to think my apathy to study is leading to my failure? "failure" may be too harsh, but maybe it's true? I wish could set a goal for myself... I've been reading my friend's latest blog, and he's smashing himself over the head with the fact that he didn't perform perfectly, that he slipped up. He's quite ambitious, quite admirable, but there's so much pressure to perform well. And I guess alot of that pressure comes from within, not from other people.

I lack that drive/motivation. I don't know from where within I can muster the will to achieve a goal. I don't even have a goal.

Perhaps I'm just lazy. I keep thinking to myself that if I don't perform well, as long as I get a UAI of above 95 I can study commerce in uni. Is it that easy? Everyone around me is aiming so high, trying so hard, making sacrifices for that higher number.

: I'm too easy on myself. Too laid back. I want too much fun.

My parents are telling me to quit all my extra curricular activities. No more cadets, SRC, they also tried to convince me to drop out of prefects?! (as if!) I've been fiddling around with my guitar alot these hols, and I bet they're going to take that away next year during the holidays... They say I have a *yeah sum*, meaning wild heart, and all I want to do is play. Which is true... sorta.

But I can't help but think if they let me choose the subjects I wanted to study in junior school, I'd be so much happier now. If they let me chose VA instead of forcing me to study Commerce... I dunno. And they're so lax on Kelly. She's studying Textiles and Food tech. No fair. *grumble*

I hope my attitude improves. I don't know what I can do right now to improve it. The beginning of year 11 was good. I was studying hard, but I just burnt out. I burnt out after a couple of months. How pathetic.

On a brighter note, BAKEFEST tomorrow with two awesome bakers tomorrow. Shall be fun fun fun.

Mum's going to HK in a couple of days, only staying there for FIVE NIGHTS! WHAT BLASPHEMY. My dad only booked FIVE NIGHTS for her. How ghey. You can't get much shopping done in 5 nights... esp when you have family + friends to visit. gayGAYgayGAYgay.

My new glasses are so rectangular!

christmas day with the family

with the EXTENDED FAMILY! <- FB PHOTOLINK

My dad's cousin's daughters' kids.

A whole load of them. Technically I'm an aunt many times removed, however we all thought it would be more appropriate for them to call me "jie jie" or Belle :)
They're so cute.

So hectic.

So firstly, in my previous blog I mentioned I only got an hours notice.. we had THAT much time to buy gifts.. on XMAS DAY. So our first location, someplace that will be open everyday except Chinese New Year, Jusco. Yep. And we bought party foods + Gift foods (gift foods are foods you buy that you never end up eating yourself, or foods you normally do not buy to eat for yourself, because you cannot afford to eat it often and are only there for people to buy as "Giftfoods"). Okay I know I sound sort of crazy right now, but I had 2 cans of red bull. So, yeah please excuse my lack of coherence. My eyelidS (yes plural) are twitching.. My brain feels like its pumping. Holy crap. Caffine is KILLING ME.

Far out.

There is a story behind this. I don't normally drink stuff like this... But story later

SO, at Jusco I decided to buy some bribery foods, otherwise known as lollies ! "CAAANDY, SHE HAS CAAAAANDY" bought a whole tin + some funky gum. The kids loved it. THEY ALL FLOCKED AROUND ME. This is one of the advantages of having a job -> buying candy to attract kids. lol.

Last week, when I was in Canberra, my sister had these kids over (THE KIDS DIDN'T REMEMBER ME, FROM THE LAST TIME I BRIBED THEM WITH BALLOON POODLES IN FEBRUARY) so yeah, she had a head start in jogging their memory of her. WHen we got there, all the kids were screaming "KELLY ! KELLY ! KELLY!" and they were really scared of me :(

SO. RICKY, my cousin-onceortwiceremoved-inlaw, dressed up as santa (lol yeaah). Hilarious. Photos are on facebook.

OH! My dad recently had a blood test check up, and we found out that he has super high sugar levels. SO PLEASE DON'T FEED HIM STARCH OR ALCOHOL. Today, I had to wrestle cups of alcohol from his hand, and Jessie, one of my cousins was like "Nahh, let him have it, LET him have it" NOOO he had HEAPS yday at the street party . LOADS. LOADS! So I drank some ! The white wine was NICE! :) I love my liquor store owning cousins. lol

BUT ANYWAY.

We got there 30 mins late. After getting lost in Pemulwuy/Nelson's Ridge because.. we have an OLD street directory.. and ALL the streets there are new :( THE HOUSES ARE SO TIGHTLY PACKED TOGETHER. its 90cm between each house.

you could possibly hear SOUNDS from next door... ha.. haa... haaaa *shifty*

So we ended up staying there for lunch, AND dinner. After dinner I was so sleepy. SO tired from looking after the kids, finger painting with them, colouring in, with their super funky textas and their crayola colouring books, taking videos/photos of them screaming and bopping up and down... maniacally. THEY'RE SO FULL OF ENERGY. But I wasnt. So about 9. Ricky saw me nodding off at the dining table, and offered Kelly and I some redbull. Oh man. in the car, Kelly said she had enough, and she gaev me her can.

SO this is why im still very awake after such a tiring day. like 100% awake.

Recently, a friend from primary school contacted me via facebook!!!!!! I seriously hadn't talked to him in ages and WOOOW so many primary school memories have been triggered. So fun talking about the past. 8) I'm glad the past is catching up with me. :)

Hmm. my neck is pulsating.

strongly.

okay. its twitching now.

I'll upload some kiddy screaming vids later. cbb uploading them yet.

Well, hope you all had a good Christmas. I had a great one this year, with my lovely family.

Goodluck with BOXING DAY SALES. Hopefully I'll be awake intime for that. :P

last to know?

Apparently, I have an xmas party to attend today in an hour.

: WHY DOES NO ONE TELL ME ANYTHING UNTIL AN HOUR BEFORE THE EVENT?! I EVEN ASK!

Far out T_T;

I shall be back with photos of my little nieces + nephews.

OH! Last night's xmas eve party was.. sort of fun. :) alot of street goss ;D

HOPE YOU ALL HAVE A JOLLY XMAS!

AGONY

WHAT THE CRAP IS WITH CRAP SCRIPT/STORY WRITING IN CHINESE DRAMAS.

Recently I got sucked into watching Eight Heroes... A chinese drama featuring 8... heroes.. =/

In the last episode, all the characters in the above photo EXCEPT the woman at the front.. DIED.

WHAT THE CRAP?!?!!?!?!?

They lasted until the LAST EPISODE. EPISODE FORTY!! FORTY?!?!?!? FORTY. I WATCHED FORTY EPISODES, JUST TO SEE THEM DIE?! WHAT STUPIDNESS. [RAGERAGERAGE]

My favourite characters (picture below) : (excuse my bad canto/english) Peng Serng, the dude and Loy Yi

*breaks down into hysterical sobbing* THEY BOTH DIED. Stupidness.

But raging aside, I googled Lu Yi (the dude ^ 's name) :O AND HE'S SO DIFFERENT! INCREDIBLY DIFFERENT. I was SHOCKED. Almost as shocked as I was when I saw Neville Longbottom on youtube looking VERY un-Neville Longbottom-y.

ANYWAY.

nggh.

stupid drama. i want to shoot something

Bah, got a shock just then when I googled "Muzi Fan Bing Bing" I get this girl, and her eyes are leaking blood !! ! Title: sum joong yuw gwai. Literal translation, Ghost in the Heart. I've seen that movie. scary. scary. scary. WAAAAAHH

oh. my mum just told me my neighbour is hosting an xmas party =_=; wah?

nggh @ blogger

Seriously, is there no efficient way of uploading photos onto blogger? It takes so long to upload 5 at a time! D8

So instead of posting photos up here I'll link you all to my wonderful ANNUAL PHOTOS and today's YUMCHA + GIFTWRAPPING PHOTOS.

Yumcha + Giftwrapping was fun.

Yumcha: Mawson, Jason, Rex, Quentin, Kelly, Alice, Sam, Cheryl and I.

GIFT WRAPPING: Rex, Mawson, Shirin, Jason, Quentin, Alice, Sam, and I.

It was VERY VERY FUN

We wrapped so many presents! Presents ranged from chocolates to DVD players and Ipod touches. We also had Burberry shirts, toiletries, and EGG WHISKS.

Man, it was so fun. I would so do it again.

ANYWAY. When I got home, a letter was waiting for me. Well, technically, it's a card. BD SO AWESOME. Noriko is the best. She sends me cards for my birthday, new years, christmas, and Halloween. PRETTY JAPANESE CARDS.

So nice

When its laying flat...
.. IT POPS UP!

THREE DEE (lol) CARD

8.21

how on earth did i wake up and get out of bed at 8.21am...

♦ YUMCHA with friends today.

that should be interesting. I need to buy AA batts to take photos 8)

♦ VOLUNTEER WORK with friends also 8)

Very interesting.

My shift finishes at 4, I have a bit of time to shop around for xmas gifts for the family.

If you're at carlo court today between 12 and 4, whizz up to the 2nd floor and say hi to me :) I'll be standing infront of the Telstra shop!

So much going on in the hols. I want to organise a Kayaking trip in Manly, with FUN ON THE BEACH too, then theres the xmas party, a small gathering at my place, 2 other small gathering at other people's place, cooking party in jan + pool party in late jan.

Sounds like fun much?

☺

far out.

some people need to consider the consequences of what they say before say it.


: HONESTLY. *steam blows out of ears*

exclamation!

She's got a chatbox! A CHATBOX! just scroll down alot :)

lol :)

SUPERUBERNESS

I FORGOT TO SAY EARLIER ON...


I FOUND BOGONG MOSS aaaa

always with me always with you

♥ joe satriani


ANYWAY, I'm going to dedicate this post to my toothbrushes :) Because these devices we use to maintain oral hygiene are very important and do not get enough spotlight!

I have 2 toothbrushes. (Well, three if you count the electric brush I rarely use).

They're both Colgate brushes. [Digressing slightly, I've noticed that at home, we always use Oral B tooth brushes and Colgate toothpaste, so I was quite shocked to find out I had TWO Colgate brushes... I have no idea where they came from!] One's red- the one I normally use at home, and the other is blue- I used this for annual.

The difference is ASTOUNDING.

The bristles on my normal one are harder, thus when I brush, I feel like I'm scraping more crap off my teeth, resulting in a more cleansing feel. Man, using my blue toothbrush at annual takes me so much longer to achieve that clean & scrubbed feel. The bristles are SO much softer, takes so much more effort/ energy to brush my teeth everyday.

And the final result of that: More exercise for my right arm = MUSCOOLZ :)


Hahahaha

forgot to say something

two things:

- After annual I realised how much I missed having a portable music player. I will buy an MP4 or something whenever I spot a good deal. I'd actually hunt on Ebay, but I'm scared I'll get spammed. T_T;

- I'm glad I went on annual. Brought about many things that wouldn't have happened if I didn't go. I can't believe I have no more annuals. :(

This is a relatively short post when compared to a blog i posted earlier on.


zzz. I feel so tired. I should head off to bed. Annual totally messed with my circadium rhythms. In the bush, I went to sleep at 9.30, woke at 4am. :

SHE HATH RETURNED

WITH A BUSTED ACHILLES TENDON ON HER LEFT FOOT...



BUT TRIUMPHANT!

Photos can come another day. I don't want to walk to the living room to get my camera. Blehh 10 days away from the comp and I'm typing so slowly.


DAY ONE:
Bus from JRAHS. Cadets are in PE uniform as they form up into 1 platoon listening carefully for their names during roll call. They slowly pile on, angering the warrant officer :P :P :P "WHY IS THIS TAKING SO LONG". I agree. SO SLOW even though they're filling in from the back!!
Bought a HUGE Woman's Weekly magazine for their HUGE HUGE HUGEASS CROSSWORD to do on the bus. yay. Anyway, we reached Latchford Barracks =__=; and had PT! Which was, I have to admit SO MUCH BETTER THAN LAST YEAR. It was so fun. : Seriously. Except monkey bars. Maximum bars for me was only about 5. HOWEVER the wall ladder thing, I performed exceptionally well :) Because I like to climb :D

DAY TWO:
WTSS- Owned men in shooting. Yes. Be careful around me and try not to piss you off, because I can blow your head of with one precise pull of the trigger of a rifle. I am a good shot hehehehe. Travelled from Latchford Barracks to Mt Beauty (close to the Vic Alps) where we stayed in "Loft Yurt" which was rather luxurious and provided a wonderful bonding time for us 7 females. It was very fun and clean and nice.

DAY THREE:
Hike day 1 : OMG SO COLD. OMG SO WINDY. OMG SLEET?!!?!?! OMG CANT BREATHE. It was so high up, a couple of steps sent me into panting fits. Within a few minutes of getting off the bus, my cheek was numb and a couple of people commented on the ruddiness of my cheeks. :O
The causeway we were supposed to cross was FLOODED. RUSHING, FREEZING THIGH DEEP WATER.

The first day was terrible. I felt like my legs were going to amputate themselves. But when we built a fire it was warm :D:D:D And we had huts to live in. So yippee. Unfortunately, I only had 0 degree temp sleeping bag, but that was bearable. Cold, but bearable. From drop off point to Tawonga Huts.

DAY FOUR:
Hike day 2: OMG SO COLD. OMG SO WINDY. OMG SLEET?!?!?! OMG STUPID TUFTS OF GRASS. Hurt my achilles tendon on this day. Slipping and tumbling off the stupid wet boundeous mounds of grass. lol. It was terrible. Reached Cope Hut. Nice fire. Realised it was super hard to get up the stairs with my ankle. Started a fire :) (HA! Milo take that, girls can start fires...)

DAY FIVE:
Hike day 3: The major carried my pack, gave me his stick, so I hobbled all the way. Led 2 sections up a SUPER hilly track. Apparently I went fast and some people dropped behind. Hehe. When I'm at the front, I actually hobble quite quickly. Took ages though, I was busting to the loo, and I was super adamant about not wanting to hide behind a bush to let it flow, so I waited. And I waited. And waited and waited and waited. There were so many anti climaxes. I thought we had reached the destination SO MANY TIMES. Guys and Girls had to split up at the junction between the trail to Fitzgerald's Hut and Kelly's Hut. Kelly's hut had a toilet. YIPPEE. The boys learnt how to dig a latrine and do a number 2 while hugging a tree. lol. Had a nice night with the girls chatting :)

DAY SIX:
Hike day 4: Arrived at the junction EARLY, waited for the guys to arrive (haha!) Groves and the major decided to apply bandages to my foot to restrict unnecessary movement. Strange, I felt pain in my calf after that. Because something else was flooded, we could not get to Roper's hut (our original destination) SO we decided to go to Edmundon's Hut to stay overnight :D The major was adamant that I not carry anything : So Buddha (THANKYOU) lugged my pack around and someone else had my webbing (I think it was Lieutenant Li). Bah. Felt quite useless + burdening =_=; Arrived at location- Tented/hootchied instead of staying in the hut. HAHA! IT WAS SO WARM AND SNUG when 3 people were shoved into a 2 man tent BD. I will DEFINATELY be doing that again. SO WARM. MY FEET WERE ACTUALLY WARM FOR ONCE.

DAY SEVEN:
Hike day 5: Carried my own webbing, Daniel Xue in year 9 carried my pack in the beginning (ty) and then Buddha carried it for the rest of the way. I hobbled House-style extremely quickly and THE BUS CAME TO PICK US UP. Yeah. I just summarised that all up REALLY quickly. : SO much more happened, but I cant seem to recall at the moment. I'm just thinking about food + feeling quite sleepy atm. Went back to Mount Beauty, showered, WENT OUT TO DINNER WITH MY yr 11 homies. To a restaurant called Frissante. Which wasn't as good as I thought it would be... :P I had high expectations. Alan had chicken, Milo had a family sized pizza, Lee and Topher had a steak, Buddha and I had Fettucine Marinara (seafood). I had a pretty good time :)

DAY EIGHT:
Victoria -> Canberra. The long drive. We arrived at Carotel Motel, toured around in a bus, spent some time in Canberra Mall which was MASSIVE. JUST FREAKING MASSIVE with only 45 mins. Not enough. Girls complained when we got on the bus again. Captain Best was EXTREMELY apologetic and the boys just laughed. Back at Carotel, the girls were all depressed, and I decided to sing my own rendition of "What about me" IMPROVISED and VERONICA HO, RECORDED IT (and then she deleted it accidentally the next day.. LOL) and then we used my song in the talentquest (and got 1st prize !!! YAYERS) Played lots of volleyball.

DAY NINE:
VOLLEYBALL, BREAKFAST, WAR MEMORIAL, CHINATOWN: ate Japanese food with Topher and Alan, Topher and I ordered a Sutamina and Alan ordered and Unagi Bento I think. It was very yummy. Strange thing though: Jap restaurant - Korean food - owned by Chinese people? :S haha. Back to Carotel, Volleyball, SWIM, shower, volleyball, dinner, preparing for TALENTQUEST, TALENTQUEST ITSELF- VERDICT: FIRSTPLACE: US and TOPHER AND ALAN'S SINGING :D YAYERS
Victoria/Kenny's group: some weird roleplay thing
Buddha+ Daniel: Stripping off their PE tracksuit while bouncing a tennis ball on a cricketbat (pretty good one to watch. lol)
Topher + Alan: 18 songs they sang (hehe)
Andy + Milo: waltz + jive + soulja boy dance
Arthur Teo + co: MONKEY CIRCUS
Michael Peng + co: ZOMBIE RAPE (drunken brawl)
LoCao + Brian Gao + Sanji + Kevin Tree: KARATE HIYAAAH
Lee: Juggling + balancing thing. So cool.
Girls: What about me, :)
Johnny + Austin + Victor + Chris Gu + Bahaven : weird role play involving funny chinese people. Went for abit long, but it was enjoyable.

VERONICA HO AND REBECCA YU BAKED TWO LOVELY CAKES which we shared with people. I love them both dearly, feeding me when I needed it the most. Damn it. I LOVE YOU GIRLS. ANNIE, RONNIE, BECCA, CLAY (WHEE). You are are freaking awesome and I can't believe I won't have another annual with you fleabags :P We all said we'd stay up the whole night, but everyone fell asleep around 12, leaving Clay and I. haha. She was sprouting "yo momma's so fat" jokes while I was writing Christmas cards for the girls. After I wrote Becca's I discovered she had fallen asleep on my Double bed, and Annie had fallen asleep on Clay's. :) Cute little girls. Pity Clay and I had to wake them :)

DAY TEN:
Time to GO: WOKE LATE. Well. Not really. I woke at 6.30, mooched around until 7.30. PACKED HASTILY. BREAKFAST, VOLLEYBALL (I love playing with the yr 9s. The dudes are such good sports + non pansies like some of the year 8 guys.. ) BUS.
BUS
BUS
BUS
SLEEP
BUS
GOULBURN: bought a small present for Kelly (because I missed her :) Also bought some ribbon because it was on sale, and it was pretty (good for wrapping presents)
BUS
BUS
MACCAS: HAPPY MEAL
BUS
BUS
wrote a couple more xmas cards for special peeps.
BUS BUS
SCHOOL!
HOME
MUM
DAD
KELLY
:O
NO MORE ANNUAL

*cry*


:(

No more annual.


No more annual.



No more annual.



I am depressed again.

L E A V I N G

for 10 days i'll be gone.

but watch out, i'll be back. WITH PHOTOS! :D


I'm so scared.

As section leader, I have so much to worry about.

I am so frickin' scared and so worried.


So anxious.
Nervous, frustrated and afraid are all understatements.

I feel so panicked, so useless and SCAREDSHATLESS to the point I want to throw up, and my tummy starts hurting.


I have practiced my drill calling at home for COUNTLESS hours. If I am not perfect at Latchford Barracks, I will be severely crushed. GAAH. So much pressure.

Damn. I hope the kids in my section will be well behaved.

Wish me luck.

I pray that God will be with me all the way :( My parents are quite worried. They heard about minus temperatures.. and sleet.

and snow?

:


I just hope there's Bogong Moss :)


I will miss civilisation dearly.

Gosh, I can feel my half digested food rising up my oesophagus.

leaving on mum's birthday :(

Bye everyone :) Catch up in the hols. Have a good rest of term !!

getting closer and closer

annual day after tomorrow.

away from civilisation, technology :(

I'll miss you all.

Presentation night was SO HECTIC. SO BUSY. MARSHALLING WAS SO HARD. [/caps]

But I guess it was a rewarding experience, because we DIDN'T screw up, the stage people did :) heehe.

No long blog today. OH! I was Sonya Marshall for 2 mins today.

conclusion

But at the end of the day, someone who cares will check up on you and will make you feel less of a toolshed.

This is how I get by everyday, and I am very thankful I have people who care about me.

toolshed

Honestly, I feel like a fool after today.

It was humiliating + embarassing *insert nggh1 emote*. BAAAH.

I had all the words lined up in my head, ready to shout out the commands... but the words sound different when they've been hurled out of my voicebox.

Something as simple as "By the right, change direction, right, right wheel" turns into "By the right, we'll move to the right turn?" (or something even more atrocious than that)

BAH. I'm so frustrated with myself. : There is NO coordination whatsoever. NO BLOODY COORDINATION.

I want to scream.

At home, I practise and practise. Everything is PERFECT.


I hate pressure, I think I react badly to it.

Did I even mindblank today? I don't remember anything except the humiliation felt at the realisation I had made a freaking stupid mistake. How can something so little make me want to curl up into a ball and bury myself.


Actually, I don't know why that happened today. Was it really pressure? Bah.

The respect I have for myself has gone down drastically.


I want to drop ext 2. My ideas have run dry. I have no exact plot.


I can feel so much negativity thickly suspended in the air.

I wish the hike would just come. Daily life is zooming by so quickly; nature has this sense of tranquility, and a day seems to pass by in good time, when it does finally feel like a day, like 24 hours. Everyday here in civilisation, I feel like I can't accomplish anything in one day.

I turn my head away from the window in the afternoon to start homework and when I look back up at the sky, its all dark, and my parents are telling me to eat dinner.

A:E FKJSDFKLSD FRUSTRATION!!!!

dear mt bogong

this is going to be one beotch of a trek.

i sort of don't want to go anymore

post hsc

lets have fun and rent a beach house for the week :)

calvin & hobbes ♥

“-You can't just turn on creativity like a faucet. You have to be in the right mood.
-What mood is that?
-Last-minute panic.”

Too right.

calvin ♥

Choice

“It is the ability to choose which makes us human.”

“Don't you ever wonder maybe if you took a left turn instead of a right you could be someone different?”

Sometimes I feel that if I did not have to choose, life would be so much easier. When I do, I'm scared I'll regret making my decision.

YESS FINISHED

Now, I just have to write a proposal.

Woopdidoo.

REJOICE

hastalavista 3u

FINISHED 3u ENGLISH

zippeedeedoodaahh zippeedeedeehhyy.

:

I put so much effort into that one silly essay that was worth 5% of my total 3u mark for HSC. So not worth it xD

Anyway. Last 2 exams tomorrow. And then I'm popping off for arvo tea at Carlo Court, picking up some xmas cards to post overseas. Then after that, travelling all the way back to the library to WORK. *sigh* and tomorrow, i'll WORK somemore. And then I work again on Wednesday.

After Wednesday I'm gone.

Dear Mawson, I hope you have fun working while I'm on annual... XP


Jap speaking tomorrow. TT___TT; bleaaaaaaaargghhh

Problem: What on earth am I going to do on Monday?
Situation: I have a huge sports bag, webbing, and a field back on me, and I'm supposed to catch a bus to and from school? :o

bah humbug

translation

我很喜歡回家的時候, 我不要做工課。 但是我要很用功去改變我的學習積習。

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I like not having to do homework when I get home. But, I have to work hard to change my work ethics/study habits.



Yeah. :)



In English it sounds super ghey. In Chinese it might also sound super gay... but to me, it sounds pretty good.



Downloaded a Chinese word processor yesterday, so decided to chuck some Chinese into my post. Ext English exam in a few hours. Went to bed SO LATE last night/this morning. Doing what? Reading Chocolat. A book I couldn't put down until 4am when I finished it. Apparently the movie is better than the book, I've only seen half of it.

They had strange names, Vianne, Anouk, Roux, Armade, Caro... I mean, the closest one I can relate to, is Caro, and that's because when I was younger, I read Cairo Jim :)

Anyway. I HATE paradigms. I'm scared I'll mind blank in the exam.. forgetting all the points that I'm going to write about. Wish I had a photographic memory. Cos then I'll regurgitate my entire essay.

Uggh I feel sick to the stomach thinking of exams.

After today, two more to go, and then I have to write my 4unit English proposal.

ooh to do list:
- 4u Eng proposal
- buy extra meters of hootchie chord for those cadets who forget to bring it this coming annual
- buy FOOD for annual
- pack bags for annual
- buy water sterilising tablets
- convince someone to come down to parra with me to shop for all these supplies; hopefully dad will say yes.
- BUY BATTERIES for camera hurrhurr (on a side note, I haven't properly taken a photo in quite a while. Well, no, I just haven't uploaded or posted in a while..)
- after annual, I will get back to PLAYING WITH VECTORS. And I'll make tonnes of "asian looking" banners, that have funky reflective-like bits in there :) Looks way cool.

Yes, great changes have occurred. Heard of the Owl and the Pussycat? Did you know the had children? Edward Lear wrote a sequel, but he never finished it. So there are blanks. I like the colour scheme (honestly, I think purple and green make a lovely clash, its contrasts so nicely. Purple and blue is so so. But I love peagreen + purple. )

It's 9.32ish and I feel like I want to go back to bed. Noooooo

five out of eight

advanced english


economics


biology


mathematics


japanese cont'd listening


extension 1 english



japanese cont'd speaking



japanese cont'd reading & writing





Yayers
I did this all in Html xD

我很喜歡回家的時候﹐ 我不要做工課。 但是我要很用功去改變我的學習積習。

two down six to go

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Damnit. Why didn't they send the email earlier? =.=;

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Advance English exam today ! And economics.

The actual English question was similar to the one I made us last night so. =/ yeah. But I think my essay was very rushed =___=; I managed to dot my full stop just when the lady said "Pens Down" which was good *phew*.

After English, I madly ran to the library to start studying. Other people were already there! I saw a "Japan" table, and a Japanese Beginners study table (I'm surprised none of the Jap beginners did eco!) so I decided to establish an "Ireland" table. :) So my Irish minions joined me, before we got kicked out by Kowalski T_T; Moved to the senior study where it was NOISY. Crammed heaps. Statistics mostly.

Eco exam was ok. The question was a bit ambiguous. I don't know whether the qu was asking about the impacts that caused govts to come up with new policies and strategies to combat it, or the globalisation impacts that arose after govts came up with new policies and strategies. So I talked about both. And wrote a tiresome FIVE AND HALF PAGES! So I felt good coming out of the all. But NOO! Andrew Li *grumble* said "WHAT? only 5 1.5? SHouldn't you have more to write about Ireland? Lots of people asked for extra paper". And then I swear, I felt all the colour drain out of my face.

Bleeh..

Haa. Cramming. Honestly, I did the exam a few hours ago, and I have already forgotten alot of stuff. T_T; First part of our HSC assessment. I hope I did not just screw them up.



Bio tomorrow.


*gulp*


Good luck all ! Do your best. I can't wait until Friday :D:D:D:D

Byee! (I'm going to be a good girl and study lots now XD)