Crankypot part 2

Today was fine, until jazz ensemble that is.

I hate not being able to read music as well.. I hate the fact that my parents see learning music as "useless" and "time/money wasting".

It's not fair. I wish my parents were the type to push me into learning piano, making me practice an hour a day, or however much they practice. Its a skill that stays, and I'm sorry to say I don't have it.

The song we're learning in jazz at the moment- it's a nightmare. I can't read/sing the notes and everyone drowns my part out. I feel frustrated and stressed, and then I can feel my throat closing up.. making it ever so hard to get a sound out. What I don't get the most is why I get the most retarded, unpredicatable, outnumbered parts that are SO HARD TO SING. I have a music disability... I can't hear the song once or twice and remember all those twisty difficult notes.

BAAAAAAAH. I don't even want to stress over this stupid thing, but I am. And that is my quandary.


I can't believe my dad doesn't see having post HSC plans is an incentive for me at the moment. He says I can't go interstate/go away/stay someplace overnight, and I definately cannot go to Hong Kong OR ABSOLUTELY ANYWHERE>

I. HATE. THESE. RESTRICTIONS.

[blah blah blah cliché teenaged girl wants independence] Far out.


OTHER RANT.

WHAT'S UP WITH PEOPLE WHO WANT TO LOOK INVOLVED, BUT DO NOT GET INVOLVED?! Asking for a bit of their time to do something for the greater good results in a friggin' dark stare and a "Do I have to?"

If you bloody had to, why would I be asking you. Far out. GAH. Prefects. A whole bunch of mismatched people. I hate it when people only do things if they get something out of it. You do things because YOU CAN and because YOU CAN HELP ANOTHER IN NEED, even if it is something trivial, it makes ALL the difference to some things.

I don't hate people who are stingy with money. I hate those who are stingy to PEOPLE. =_=;
I hate those who:
- accuse other people of hypocrisy; what the heck man. All humans have flaws and hypocrisy is yours too. I don't believe anyone has not said anything hypocritical before. It's a freaking lie.
- think their time is precious, and like to waste other people's. The world does not revolve around you. Some people like helping out, but it doesn't mean you fully use them to do all the things you could easily do.
- think they're failures. I mean honestly, eat a teaspoon of cement or something and harden up.
- think they're rich and like to flaunt it. I'd like to say YOU ARE NOT RICH. You are people who are DRY and BARREN on the inside, and you think of nothing but showing off your bucks and how much you can rub it in other's faces.
- say they'll do thinks, but they don't. What a let down.

BAAAAAH. CRANKY POTS HAS RETURNED. I IMMENSELY DISLIKE THIS WORLD BECAUSE OF ALL THE INCONSIDERATE BEINGS IN IT. D: D:

Thank Goodness we only have around 5 million years left on this planet.